Have you ever woken up one morning and felt happy that people around you need you? Especially one who you need in your life?

Only to realize they don't really need you that day?
After you've tried miserably to be useful to them?

I had those kinda days the past week and I feel useless. I feel as though I'm useless to a friend at the point where they need someone the most. And my insecurities on that matter is further exemplified by someone else proving themselves far more useful than I was and will ever be.

Jealously is not a happy monster. It feeds on pain and hurt, shitting out anger that's both blinding and stupid. I've lived 24 years of my life coming to 2009 and I've done rather well shooing away the beast that spawns from jealously empowered by the insecurities in me.

But sometimes you just can't help but feel lost, alone and just damn fucked-up with your life.

Why am I writing here? To people who don't
give a flipping fuck about my issues? Who have their owns problems to simply ignore my rant? lol, because I've lost it.
[I just want attention]
I'm honest. And quite possibly immature.





Soooo, how's your life?
I care, enough to reply to your comment, (at least!)